From Thomas

A month since you left us little Thomas – by Simone

My dearest little Thomas   It’s a month today since you entered this world, and then left it so tragically.   I have no profound thoughts, no words of wisdom. Just a deep, deep sadness and void that feels like it will never be filled.   I think of you all the time, pretty much every moment of the day. I play in my head how it would be if you had lived. How we would have managed your stay in NICU, what my days would have looked like. And I also play in my head the fact that if…

A mothers eulogy to her son – by Simone

Today we had a private farewell to our son, Thomas. It was so very hard but I am glad that we did it. Here are some of the words I spoke, straight from my heart.   My darling Thomas   As we gather today to honor and bless you darling child of ours, my heart can’t help but be shattered into a million pieces.   You were a true blessing sent to us from Belsie, straight from heaven. A little person we had so desperately wanted but had almost been too scared to hope for. But hope I had. From…

When your already broken heart shatters – by Simone

Where to begin, oh where to begin…the last 16 days have been a complete and absolute rollercoaster ride of emotions. From initially thinking we were losing baby Thomas 2 Thursday’s ago, to things seeming to stabilise a bit; to a terrible scan, to a somewhat improved scan; from one medical complication to another; to being allowed out of hospital for a few hours 2 days in a row as a test drive to see how things went; to making it to 26 weeks and being allowed to go home with strict instructions around bed rest; to being back in hospital…

Our son Thomas

Yesterday our son Thomas Martin Blanckenberg was born at 09h00 prematurely at 26 weeks. This due to complications with both Simone and Thomas. He sadly passed away at 12h30. Simone and I know that Thomas is with his sister Isabella in heaven now embraced in her smiling warmth and love. May his soul rest in eternal peace. We thank god for our shining little boy Murray, who in this time like the last, is our shining beacon of hope and bubbling fountain of joy. “We meet but briefly in life, if we touch each other with stardust – that is…

Wow, what a fright my Belsie – by Simone

My darling Belsie   Wow, it’s been a rather awful 48 hours! How do I even begin?   Your gift you sent to us, our blessing from you, your baby brother…I thought I was losing him on Thursday morning. I thought you were calling him back to you.   I was standing quietly at a school Open Day at the school we hope Murray will be attending from 2018, and at around 9am I started to feel weird, different “down there”. Could my bladder control be that bad? Surely not? What the hell was going on? I tried to ignore…

Our present from Belsie – our blessing, our gift, new life – by Simone

I thought long and hard before doing this post, as I have never been one to plaster this sort of thing all over social media. I was always too scared to “jinx” something. But in light of the fact that we have been so open about our inner most feelings over the last 4.5 months, our hurt, our sadness, I thought it also appropriate to share our joy. We are expecting a baby boy at the beginning of August. I am 13 weeks pregnant and so far everything looks good. We feel blessed on so many levels. The fact that…