From April, 2016

Wow, what a fright my Belsie – by Simone

My darling Belsie   Wow, it’s been a rather awful 48 hours! How do I even begin?   Your gift you sent to us, our blessing from you, your baby brother…I thought I was losing him on Thursday morning. I thought you were calling him back to you.   I was standing quietly at a school Open Day at the school we hope Murray will be attending from 2018, and at around 9am I started to feel weird, different “down there”. Could my bladder control be that bad? Surely not? What the hell was going on? I tried to ignore…

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Its been 7 months – by Simone

Hi my gorgeous Belsie angel   7 months today since you left us, how is that possible? Gosh, the months seem to just roll into each other. I miss you baby girl, so much, all the time. You are always at the forefront of my mind, always!   I was in such a bad place emotionally a little while ago. I wasn’t coping at all with pretty much any aspect of life. But I have been feeling the last 3 week or so like I am able to cope a little better. Like my head is popping up above the…

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Shine down on us – by Simone

My darling Belsie   Today we head off on holiday for a bit (and you would have been 14 months old today). It’s a holiday that we booked when you were still alive, with a few other families, all with children of similar ages. The holiday had so many dreams, thoughts and hopes attached to it. It’s taken quite a mindset shift to get my head around you not coming with us, the holiday not being as I had imagined it would be.   I wasn’t able to sleep last night so got up to watch TV. Note to self:…

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