A booklet on Grief
“Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak knits up the o-er wrought heart and bids it break.” ― William Shakespeare, Macbeth
From January, 2016
To our sweet little boy, Murray – by Simone
Our darling son, Murray You are our blessing, our lifeline, our gift. What on earth would we do without you? How on earth would we have got through the last 134 days? You have given us the reason to carry on, the reason to get out of bed in the mornings, to shower, get dressed and sometimes to smile. You are at the most wonderful age. Learning new things every day, absorbing everything, flexing that little personality of yours, Even though you are still so so little, you are just so in-tune, so clever. You know now that…
Photographs – Bitter-Sweet – By Simone
Anybody who knows me knows that I am big into photos! It always used to drive my family mad as I used to insist on a whole stack of family photos being taken every Christmas and on other regular photo sessions. The photos on the walls in our home need a bit of an update. They were last done just after Bella was born so there are very few of her up. And I want to rectify that. I have photos of her on my desk at work but I want to be able to look at her smiling…
Lull – 4 month today – from your daddy pops
The ferocious storm which battered me has passed, quiet moments after a sudden and rendering torrent. Crickets and Christmas beetles drumming reminders, constant strobe memories of you my Belsie, my sweet child. Your garden is ready my poopsie, pink little roses and white smiles all around. Water cascading, reminding us of you our gentle gift, Boy boy asks for you more and more, my heart breaks. I go to your smiling face many times a day, holding onto the remnant of your life, so difficult to totally let go. Promise of new life, I can’t comfortably contextualise, it doesn’t…
A letter to you 4 months after you left us – by Simone
Good morning my darling baby girl Its 4 months today since you left us, and literally not a minute goes by that I don’t think of you. Every. Single. Minute. It still amazes me that something can consume my mind so completely, to the exclusion of almost everything else. I have become inordinately forgetful, ridiculously so. Sometimes I would forget things before but then when somebody said something to me, it would trigger the memory and then I would know exactly what they were talking about and have good recall. That’s certainly not the case now! Its almost like…
Bella’s special beach sunset – by Simone
We received a gift today from the mom of a dear friend of mine, Cherri. Cherri has known me since I was 12 years old and had been wonderful to us over this time (as well as in other challenging times of my life). She always seems to know the right thing to say and through her own hardships and heartaches has really learnt how to be empathetic and how to reach out and help others. Cherri made contact with CarlyMarie (whose story is below) and had this very beautiful beach sunset for Bella captured for us. We are…
Wherever you are, my love will find you – by Simone
My darling girl I have just finished reading your brother his bedtime story. I read him a book which was actually a gift to you from our dear friends in the States, Colin and Tori. I have read him this book often and every time it moves me to tears, but I felt very strongly that tonight it was a message to you. “Wherever you are, my love will find you” by Nancy Tillman “I wanted you more than you ever will know, so I sent love to follow wherever you go. It’s high as you wish…
11 months and a new year – by Simone
You would have been 11 months old today my precious girl, and it’s also the beginning of 2016. I normally use a new year to reflect on the year before, the good, the bad, whether I achieved the goals I had set out for myself at the beginning of the previous year, and also to look forward and to set out a few things that I would like to achieve or do in the year ahead. It would be so so easy to say “Good riddance to 2015, it was awful, full of so much tragedy, and most…
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