Its easy to become bogged down in the bad and to start believing that nothing good will ever happen. Well not easy, but after all the challenges that have been thrown our way the last 9 months, the bad can sometimes overwhelm. And so today I take time to acknowledge and celebrate the good. I had a PET scan yesterday and I got the results today – its all clear! The relief couldn’t be more real and quite frankly, overwhelming. After my bad blood results 4 months ago, the death of Bella and Thomas, and the stress that my body…
“Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak knits up the o-er wrought heart and bids it break.” ― William Shakespeare, Macbeth
From June, 2016
9 Months today sweet girl – by Simone
My darling Belsie Its 9 months today – how is that possible? Oh my darling girl, in so many ways it feels so surreal still, the reality of it still not quite hitting home. I am feeling so very very flat, just blah. I am not crying all the time like I was a few weeks ago, but tears always feel very close to the surface. My memory is shot. I don’t remember simple things from one moment to the next and unless I write something down as I think of it, the next moment it is forgotten. I don’t…
A month since you left us little Thomas – by Simone
My dearest little Thomas It’s a month today since you entered this world, and then left it so tragically. I have no profound thoughts, no words of wisdom. Just a deep, deep sadness and void that feels like it will never be filled. I think of you all the time, pretty much every moment of the day. I play in my head how it would be if you had lived. How we would have managed your stay in NICU, what my days would have looked like. And I also play in my head the fact that if…
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