From Simone general writing

Sometimes life’s challenges just feel too much – by Simone

I am not in a great headspace at the moment. I feel like I am being tested beyond what I have the capacity to deal with. Even though I know I will get through all these challenges, I am finding it all quite tough to be honest.   I had cancer 5 years ago (a malignant melanoma which spread to the lymphs in my groin) but after surgeries and radiation, besides my very regular check ups, I continue life without thinking about it too much. I suffer with severe lymphedema (swelling of the right limb) which I have constant therapy…

Photographs – Bitter-Sweet – By Simone

Anybody who knows me knows that I am big into photos! It always used to drive my family mad as I used to insist on a whole stack of family photos being taken every Christmas and on other regular photo sessions. The photos on the walls in our home need a bit of an update. They were last done just after Bella was born so there are very few of her up. And I want to rectify that.   I have photos of her on my desk at work but I want to be able to look at her smiling…

Thank you for reaching out – by Simone

We had the most uplifting and heart warming experience yesterday (Sunday). 10 days ago we received an email from people (K&A) that we don’t know, who lost their 1 year old daughter 9 days after our precious Bella left us. Their little girl died from SUDC in her crib. She was their only child and their delight and shining star. They had come across us as James went to school with a friend of theirs. This friend had been reading our blog and recommended to them that they take a look as he felt that it may help them in…

Signs? – by Simone

As I mentioned in an earlier post, I have been looking for signs from you…anything really…   A few days ago, I was in our bedroom playing with Murray on the bed, and I suddenly heard this vibrating noise. I ignored it for a while, not being able to figure out what on earth it was. I couldn’t ignore it anymore and I went into the bathroom and somehow my electric toothbrush had turned itself on! Completely bizarre! And I am going to believe that that was a sign from you! Hi my baby girl, mommy hears you and loves…

Waves – they are big today… – Simone

“I wish I could say you just get used to people dying. I never did. I don’t want to. It tears a hole in me whenever someone I love dies, no matter the circumstances. But I don’t want it to “not matter” I don’t want it to be something that just passes. My scars are a testament to the love and relationship that I had for and with that person. And if the scar is deep, so was the love. So be it. As for grief, it comes in waves. When the ship is first wrecked, you’re drowning, with wreckage…