I am fellow traveler on life's often tumultuous roads. I have lived and worked through several life changing traumas and experiences which have shaped my path. I strive to help others overcome adversity and lead fulfilled and flourishing lives.
I have a special interest in Addiction Education and Recovery Coaching, Grief Counselling and general positive life orientation.
My darling precious daughter Ten years ago today, at just 7.5 months old, you died. A whole decade has passed — how is that even possible? The lead up to today has been heavy, and today itself has been so very hard. In some ways, even harder than recent years. Your brother hasn’t been well,…
Hi Grief You came to visit us again this week. You came in, uninvited, to turn our lives upside down. You took from us a daughter, sister, wife, mother, and dear friend. You leave us devastated, reeling, not knowing what way is up or where to turn. We want to make this deep pain and heartache go away. But Grief, I know that we can’t. You are here to stay, and we can’t chase you away. I know you, Grief. You and I are not friends, but we see each other, often begrudgingly so. And over time we have learnt…
Nine years ago our precious darling Belsie, you left us, having only spent 7.5 months with us. The path of our lives changed forever at that moment. The memory of that day lives on crystal clear in my mind. I don’t remember the days leading up to your death and I definitely don’t remember the many months after, but that day is etched in my brain. Our lives were completely turned upside down in a way we would never ever have wanted or welcomed into our lives. And yet as time has passed, and the grief and deep, deep yearning…
Baby girl, our precious Bella Today is your 9th birthday. How is that even possible? I miss you so very very much. I woke up with this very heavy feeling this morning. In fact I have had a very heavy feeling for about 10 days now, knowing that today was coming. But this morning particularly I woke up being so aware of how our morning would be different if you were still with us. We would be waking up our precious 9 year old daughter with presents and balloons and celebrating the whole day! You would be taking treats for…
Baby girl, darling Belsie It’s been 8 years since you died. 8 long years. In some ways it feels like an entire life time ago, and in other ways, I can remember the day you died like it was yesterday. I still remember very single detail of that day even though so much of what passed after has blurred. This morning I was looking for your special Jo Malone candle to light so that it will burn for the whole of today and I came across your memory box. I have never had the courage to go through it but…
My darling Belsie Boo Today you would have been 8 years old. 8 years ago you entered this world beautiful girl. Gosh how I miss you every single day. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you, miss you and wonder how on earth this is our reality. Today I feel robbed. Robbed of so many things. Robbed of knowing what you would look like now…because I no longer feel that I know that. Robbed of knowing how your little personality would have developed, what you would have liked, resonated with, your little quirks and idiosyncrasies. Robbed…
I must tell you, it is absolutely surreal to be standing here, 23 years after I stood on this very stage at my own matric dinner. I stood here thinking I was invincible and feeling like the world really was my oyster. I had enjoyed almost every aspect of my time at DSG and in many ways it was the perfect school for me – a small, nurturing environment which allowed me to excel in certain areas. I had been in the DSG schooling system from the age of 4 and I am pretty sure my dad thinks he…
Oh baby girl – today 7 years ago you died…how the hell is that possible? On so many levels – how is it possible that you died at all, how is it possible that it was 7 years ago? In some ways a life time ago, in other ways, like it was just yesterday. Oh how cruel it’s seems, every single part of it. That day I remember like it was yesterday…every single part of it. What I wore that morning, the meeting I went to and the presentation I gave, where I was standing at work when the phone…
Happy birthday my precious darling Thomas. Today you would have been 6 years old. And 6 years ago we also lost you and you went to be with your sister. We lost you on a Wednesday, just like today is a Wednesday. I remember the morning and the lead up to it as clearly as if it were yesterday. Last night I even woke up at the same time as I remember waking up that early early Wednesday morning 6 years ago – when I passed the 8cm clot that had caused all our issues in the first place. I…
Good morning precious baby girl of ours Today is your 7th birthday. You would have been a whole 7 years old and in grade 1. The thought of that is so so hard my darling child. So many milestones we have missed, so many celebrations we haven’t had. I write this while sitting with you and Thomas at The Vineyard. It’s a perfect morning, quiet, peaceful. Birds chirping, water flowing in the river, sun spilling through the trees, dappled light on the leaves. It feels very similar to the day you were born, which I also remember as being…
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