Look what I did baby girl – yes I know, as your Aunty Carol says “Wow, that is left field!!!”. Because it really is for me. But it just feels so right.
I now have your name emblazoned on my wrist forever and always!!!! You are forever in my heart and on my mind, but I also wanted you physically on me always, as my constant declaration of being your mom. From the day we conceived you I became your mom forever, and even though you are not physically with us on this earth anymore, you will be with me forever. You will always be my daughter and I will always be your mom. And I am so so proud of that. Being a mom to my children is the most important, meaningful thing I will ever do.
Its been 44 days since I last held you, last cradled you to me, last kissed that beautiful face of yours. And I yearn for you with a longing I didn’t know was possible. I miss you with every part of me, a physical pain that seems to be getting worse with time, not better. I think of you every moment of every day and find it difficult to do anything at the moment.
I love you, precious baby girl of mine.